"I'll be away.../I'm back!"

[Jackal]

and going 'Rutger Hauer in The Hitcher' on Jackal.

What did I do to you?

[shadowgrin]

You're the one he could never have.

[Fenix]

That, and I've got something against the Dutch.

[Its_asdf]

It's either one of those two paths or becoming a male prostitute, having wild sex with a bunch of penguins and going 'Rutger Hauer in The Hitcher' on Jackal.

Seems like the most lucrative of all the career paths.

[Dan's Brain]

I probably wasn't likely to post anyway, but i'll be going to LA tomorrow morning for my free holiday courtesy of Coca-Cola. Go life!

[Andrew]

Bon voyage, hope you have an awesome time! Can't beat a free holiday.

[Modifly]

Just a quick note, I'll be away from Sunday 21st toThursday 25th. It's an end of academic year school trip to one of the island here in Thailand, hopefully it'll be relaxing for us all especially since we just finished the marathon exams this past Wednesday. Well, to be precise, I'll be away after Saturday's evening. Saturday's evening is senior prom night and I'll get home late and then it's school trip the next morning.

[Andrew]

Sounds fun, have a great time.

[Modifly]

Thanks Andrew, I'll try to.

[Modifly]

Sorry for double posting, but I'm back. I've seen a few people asking me in my thread to bring back some Thai goods for them. Sorry to disappoint you guys, but I haven't brought any back. I've got some patches to give to you instead, how does that sound?

On the other note, school holiday begins tomorrow. Yayy!

[Stress Fracture]

Oh, no Thai goods? So sad.. Just Kidding. How I wish it's still vacation here. I'm jealous.

[Lean]

Yes, Thai goods please.

[Joe']

Hey everyone, I'm back.. kinda... I'm still dealing with some stuff (mostly DP, though I haven't yet been diagnosed with DP disorder so that's good news, especially since it's been a very hard time these past few months) but I'll be checking the forums every once in a while. I see Jae and Fenix are also back, that's good.. What else is new round here?

[shadowgrin]

Who the fuck are you?

I hope you're not some kind if pink-lacoste-shirt-gay-belt wearing freak member the NLSC once had.

[J@3]

Hey Joe welcome back... what is DP disorder? Please tell me it's degenerative penis disorder

[shadowgrin]

Is it this, Joe?
Depersonalization disorder? Never heard that one before, though all of us may have experienced it without knowing what it is. Care to shed some light Joe?

Depersonalization disorder (DPD) is a dissociative disorder in which the sufferer is affected by persistent or recurrent feelings of depersonalization and/or derealization. The symptoms include a sense of automation, going through the motions of life but not experiencing it, feeling as though one is in a movie, feeling as though one is in a dream, feeling a disconnection from one's body; out-of-body experience, a detachment from one's body, environment and difficulty relating oneself to reality.

Occasional moments of depersonalization are normal; persistent or recurrent feelings are not. A diagnosis of a disorder is made when the dissociation is persistent and interferes with the social and occupational functions necessary to everyday living. Most cases of depersonalization disorder are triggered by abuse, trauma, and drug use, although a variety of genetic and environmental factors are implicated. Depersonalization disorder can be conceptualized as a defense mechanism as the core symptoms of the disorder are thought to protect the victim from negative stimuli. Depersonalization disorder is often comorbid with anxiety disorders, panic disorders, clinical depression and/or bipolar disorder.

Although depersonalization disorder is an alteration in the subjective experience of reality, it is by no means related to psychosis as sufferers maintain the ability to distinguish between their own internal experiences and the objective reality of the outside world. Sufferers are able to distinguish between reality and fantasy, during episodic and continuous depersonalization, and do not represent a risk to society since their grasp on reality remains stable at all times

Too many watched movies, Joe?

[Jackal]

Oh, I googled DP syndrome and came up with this...

1 dp syndrome

1. tendancy to steal boyfriends while still maintaining an incredibly ugly appearance.

2. looking somewhat decent in appearance from far away, but upon further, up close examination revealing extremely largeforehead and un-closable mouth.

3. resembling,in girth and facial features, that of a horse.
Devin P has some strong DPSyndrome, we were so grossed out.

"That girl over there looked so hot until she walked up to talk to me and started neighing when she spoke--she must have dp syndrome"

2 This syndrome was discovered by valid scientists A.L. and J.S. after learning that the common man who gets rejected by a fairly attractive girl then ends up dating a monstrosity despite his friends interventions. This syndrome is named after the original subject, D.P.

"What does he have? DP Syndrome?!"

I prefer my version.

[Patr1ck]

I think I may have a little of that.

1. Macropsia or micropsia, an alteration in the perception of object size or shape.
2. A sense that other people seem unfamiliar or mechanical.

[Joe']

Yes, DP is depersonalization. I'm sorry, I thought I'd mentioned it before.. I've been dealing with it (and DR - derealization) for almost two years now, and it has become more recurrent in the past few months, although I haven't had any "attacks" in the past month or so..

It is not about feeling as though I'm in a movie as much as it is about feeling that I'm constantly dreaming, though it's hard to explain. I feel numb most of the time and often can't recognize myself (as in while looking at the mirror) or others, etc.

My shrink said it's caused by depression, anxiety and stress. He also said it's rare for people my age to experience DP and DR (it's mostly chronically depressed middle-aged men.) and he believes I have some sort of DP/DR that isn't caused by either anxiety nor stress, so I'm not taking any drugs 'cause he says it could actually make things worse (something about triggering panic attacks.) But the good news is, as I've already said, I haven't been diagnosed with DP disorder yet and things look to be getting a little bit more normal recently.

[Joe the Space Marine]

It sounds like good way to get out of having to work.

[Jackal]

Now that's funny, you downplaying his mental health after admitting you're working on "childhood trauma's" yourself.

I have some severe childhood trauma's. I've blocked out most of my earliest memories. Recently I've been having succes with regressive therapy to try to get my childhood back.

[Andrew]

Welcome back, Joe'. Sorry to hear about what you're going through, it certainly doesn't sound like much fun but it's good that you're seeking treatment and they're not just throwing meds at it. Good luck.

[Joe the Space Marine]

My mental health is peachy. All I am trying to do is regain memories that might be unpleasant.
And I never heard of depersonalization. You accept anything you hear without questioning?

[Jackal]

Clearly your mental health isn't peachy, you're as dumb as a rock. Gotta be something wrong there.

No, I don't accept anything I hear, but I don't express my opinion regarding the matter in a condescending way when the original poster seemingly seems distressed about the condition. (Unless I a) can joke about it with that person or b) know the person is a fag.) Not because the folks in your redneck side of the woods have never heard of the condition, means you get a free pass to mock it.

Trying to regain memories that are unpleasant, sounds like a crybaby bitch story to me.

[Joe the Space Marine]

If things sound like a bitch story to you, it might have something to do with your point of view on things.

I told myself not to get into it with internet gangsters. Guess I never learn.